~♪~ here I stand before you here I stand before you a crumpled mess but I'm sure you know the reason here I kneel in prayer can you still say I'm pure? can't answer quite for sure who I keep going for if only father knew if only father knew the better thing to do still, there's no starting anew he wouldn't let me see you oh, I'll fall straight to hell "I swear I never meant to-" does the cross atop me fit me well? maybe it's all your fault maybe you're the liar I'll repent when you can't say the same but why should I keep quiet? I'm sorry I never came back SORRY I NEVER CAME BACK it's not enough- the missing piece- he misses me just let me please oh, what have I done wrong that all along I thought He would forget me? there's something wrong I have to die when will it be enough in his eyes? God loves me my family forgive me God save me God hates me my disloyalty locked up, set me free I'll give my final plea dad loves me I'm happy he'll save me forsake me I'm sorry can't I try? if I died I'd be back on his side I'm losing my sanity I'm losing my family I've caved in to apathy I gave out so desperately God is here He's here forever in this afterlife together sorry, Doughy sorry, Dad I'm sorry I'm so goddamned bad I'll forgo it all... it's not enough, but I'll keep trying the words are on the wall and I'll keep writing driven to insanity but I deserve it, honestly driven to the end of life but I can't seem to see the light it's ok, though I'm still here with nothing but my unshed tears if I'm so strong then what's this fear? is it enough for you to hear? oh, what have I done wrong that all along I thought He would forgive me? there's something wrong you did this to me when will it be enough? please, oh, please... God loves me my family forgive me God save me God hates me my impurity unlike somebody somebody who deserves reprieve dad hates me now I see he'll break me always I'm sorry could you please leave me be? I'm losing my vision could this place be heaven? all the things I see are nothing like what you instilled in me, but my heart is screaming out of my chest and all I want is... all I want is... "Doughy... "I have to die again... "I have to talk to God... "He misses me... "God... "Is that you? "I'm here... "I'm here..." oh, where did I go wrong? I thought heaven and hell would be so simple god always understands soon I'll rest in the hands of the lord, of the end... god loves me my family forgive me come save me god hates me I lied through my teeth broken, breaking me I'll make you happy dad loves me dad hurt me he'll save me forsake me I'm sorry I swear that I learned my lesson god loves me, always I've lost all my sanity you've lost your humanity I gave out so easily one day He'll be there with me I'll be perfect here forever some things can't be put together sorry, Doughy sorry, Dad I've always been COMPLETELY MAD "I promise I learned my lesson... "And... "I'll never do that... "Ever again. "Dad? "I love you."